Confusing

I think i am not talented to express what is in my head. I am amazed by the movie makers or book writers who can picture their thoughts with a story or thousands of words and make people understand what they are believing. First of all they should know what they are thinking, not like me, get confused again. I guess I get confused quite often, because I have too much time to do nothing. It leads me to be paranoid.

Human are so complicated. I guess not so many people know what they want and what they really want. For somebody it could take life time to find the answer. I thought I wanted to work before, but recently as the on-board date coming closer, the more I feel I am quite happy that staying at home and do whatever I want to do. I finally would start working soon, and now these my last-freedom days seem to be so precious. Life would have another big change. People are all afraid of changes, more or less. Maybe that’s why I have been nervous lately.

My friends say it’s normal to feel this way after two back-to-school years. I just don’t want to change too much of the way I am living right now. I love it. The job that UK company offered me was home-based. It could be awesome. But it pissed my parents off. They didn’t understand what kind of company would not even give you an office… anyway, that case has closed already. I hope after few regular working days everything would be ok…

I will start on 12th Jan officially. So there is still about one week to enjoy my jobless free life! Party from Wednesday to Saturday for the last damn time!