Mar 8, 2009

A good movie - Flash of Genius

What kind of movie do you like? I would say I like all kinds of good movies. And what kind of movie you think it's good movie? I would say any movie that makes me think lot more after watching it.

I appreciate the development of the entertainment industry today. Because thought those movies I have learned a lot. They bring me in to the situations, touch my deep feelings and make me understand more things which might not be understood at the present for me.

There was a movie I watched tonight, called Flash of Genius. I consider it as a very good movie. It talks about an engineer Dr. Kearns who invented the intermittent windshield wiper, persistently pursue the justice. He took the giant automobile corporation Ford to the court for stealing his invention. The movie told us how heavy the cost would be for doing the right thing, and how persevering a person should be to resist all those temptation to do the right thing.

Compare to Dr. Kearns, I suppose that myself is a much weaker person. The company had raised the settlement from 250 thousand to 30 million to stop Dr. Kearns, but he didn't. Facing the big amount of money and a family with 6 kids, he still chose the justice. I thought about myself, what would I do if I were him. I probably would take the money at the first place.

I have always considered myself a very dignified person. I care more about the things which have impact on my soul, my believe, and my value, and less materially. But in that case, a life change offer, I am not sure if I would be that steady in that situation. I guess I am just one of the majority, and people call it reasonable.

However, what my point here is, is there only one criterion of right or wrong? I don't know. As I am writing right now, I have changed my standpoint several times. Should a man be responsible for his family and give the best life to them? But how could the man ever teaches his kids to do the right thing, to be good people?

Conclusion is Life is damn hard. The reality is damn cruel. Everything has a cost no matter it's right or wrong. I admire noble people, but remember life is short. What we can do in this world is balancing. Try to be a person who yourself would respect. That's it, and that's all.


Feb 9, 2009

OMG, heart melting words~~~

Haha, it's so funny what I am going to tell about. Today I started a four-days training course which about Consultative Selling Skill and Key Account Management. It is conducted by a world-class consultant associate. The facilitator is from Australia. He is a very experienced marketing and sales person. He shared many valuable view with us.

Even I am not doing sales job, but I really appreciate that my boss invited to the course. There are so many principles and theories can perfectly apply in personal life. Even though I had many many sales training before, but the trend is always changing. There is always new concepts, and you can always learn something from different facilitator.

In today's agenda, we talked about the importance of Listening of handling objections. The guy gave us an example of how important for a guy to listen to the girl when there was a objection in relationship. He said the girl probably wanted the guy to give some reaction or sympathy when the girl's talking. Then the words were spoken out smoothly "Oh honey, it must feel awful!"

Haha, I was a bit in the day dream. I was shocked by those words came back to the classroom from the dreamland straight away. IT FEELS SO FREAKING AWESOME. hehehe.... soft voice... considerate and sympathetic.... OMG, haven't heard of these kinda words for a long time. Pathetic! I laughed at myself afterward, but it was really sweet, heart melting sweet!

OH my dear God, are you going to send me a sweet guy soon?!

Feb 8, 2009

The cruel real world

Crazy week and crazy weekend. I focus my mind on work, try my best to see the direction in a kinda sensitive environment. Many friends envy me that I have found a good job which not involves quotas or ROI (return of investment). My job is supposed to be scientific, promoting the latest world-class techniques and skills of surgical procedures in order to elevating the healthcare quality to a higher level in Asia countries. I believe what I am doing is a right thing, and it inspires me everyday.

But there are too many grey zone in healthcare industry, we have to do the business under a professional and legal practice. That's why we try to avoid relating our sales numbers to the clinical education programs. It's like walking at the place full of landmines. The stressing points are first, it's hard to find the balance of educations and markets, and the second is detecting those landmines. I need more information and records to free me to do the right decision.

Almost 10 hours working everyday, it easily worn me out in the weekend. I couldn't enjoy anything after a long company dinner on friday. Yeah, welcome to the real world! My time is fully arranged with different appointments, meetings and dates. I am surrounded by my colleagues, my friends, and strangers. But I still feel there is something missing. I have been looking for it since a long time to complete me, to make everything meaningful.

I guess I went to a wrong place, saw the wrong person and had the false feeling. Is that true people nowadays are too tired to have space for complications, a simple cuddling or tickling suits us just fine? Is that too much I expect the person wanted to know me from inside, understood me and shared his world with me? (It sounded quite a lot though). It's sad, because it seems I am the only one who want more, no matter how I tired to deny it.

I don't have any fixed standard to say this is good or that is bad. I do things which make me happy and comfortable. But sometime I am fooled by myself or by the illusions. I took the risk of hurting myself. I thought I have been over it. I thought I could be free from what myself would really think. Every time I walked out of that door, I never felt better but even lonelier and more confused...

Feb 5, 2009

Australia (2008)

Few days before I went to cinema with a friend to see the movie Australia. First we saw, damn, it was 2 hours and 45 mins. We were a bit frightened. Almost 3 hours sitting at that small seat doesn't sound so comfortable. But for the sake of all those Oscar nominations, we still went for it. And it didn't disappointed us at all. We didn't feel sleepy for a single minute. I was totally immersed in the movie. I could even feel what the characters felt, that's why I cried like a silly girl. After the movie, my friend made fun of my red eyes. That was embarrassing.

It was a great movie got lots of different kinds of sensitivities in it, such as the love between lovers, between a mother and a child, between different races, the spirit of the nature and human, the frightfulness of war, the ugliness of the invaders...For the detailed plot please ask Mr. Google. The movie enlarged every melting moment to the level of extreme. I was touched by the strong woman Lady Ashely and her lover Drover. Not because they are such beautiful looking people, but for their courage of being who they really are and doing the things only which they believe in.

On the way back home, I was really tired from the whole day work. I was thinking, nowadays there must be lots of people just too tired to feel anything happens around/to them. Everyday wake up and go to work, eat then sleep... day by day the same (or there must be people just ignore everything, and focus on wasters which they believe it's a freaking big joke life should have been like. That's the different case, I am not going to talk about it here). I think work is certainly important, but it's not the most important in my life. Same thing as money.

I believe there must be things more important than how big the house I live or how fast the car I drive. There must be other things that make me have no regrets left when the moment I am dying. I don't know if I am able to jump out of the Cliche of the society, just like I am not sure whether I am able to hike alone into the wild. Even if I really want to but it would be life risking though. I want to feel more in my life, everything, every sensation, good or bad, happy or sad, love or jealousy... However, I found I am actually one of those numb people unfortunately. It was the first time I have shed tears for more than one year. Ah, and I cried for a damn movie.

So you could probably guess how good the movie was, hehe... It's a must-watch in 2009 (for China is 2009, but other region should be counted in 2008). The best quotes from the moive are:
  1. Without love, you have nothing.
  2. It is like this, but doesn't mean it should be like this.
Those two are so far I have the most memory of. Please add those what you have felt about in the comment. Thanks for sharing. Sharing makes the true happiness. Cheers!


Jan 28, 2009

What the hell is CNY


Chinese New Year is boring as hell. People shoot off the fire crackers insanely. In the new year eve I couldn't even hear my own TV. The tradition of setting off fire crackers for scare away the HOLY beast which called Nian. Nian comes to the town once a year, just like Santa. But he is not coming to give the gifts, he takes lives, put the village on fire, eat children...all kinds of terrible things. Don't know where the smart chinese people found something make terrific sound to scare him away, that holy thing so called firecrakers, so the village can avoid the tragety once a year. That's why in Chinese called Spring Festival (Chinese New Year) also Gou Nian, means Nian passed.

Although the story is nice, and the firecrackers are really bring some holiday mood, but I never understood what's so fun of firecrackers. For 10-30 mins is ok, but not all night long... so fed up with all those. Every year, people lose their hands, arms, or eyes or whatever blowout, houses got on fire... many accidents just bcz of firecrackers! Why people still do this dangerous shit non-stop-ly! HOLY!

Nowadays, CNY really has become kinda meaningless, especially for the small family like mine. The New Year holiday just like any other holidays. We have the same activities like usual, having dinner (ok, there would be way too many dishes than uaual, but nothing fancy like stew peacock or something like that), watching TV (besides you could never hear what they talking about on tv bcz of the freaking firecrackers)... for me, nothing special for the eve. Eat-->go back to my room-->sit in front of my table. Ha, the special thing for this year was, instead pc in front of me, there is an awesome Macbook! That's the first goal I scored in 2009, having a Mac. A good kickoff! Keep it on.

I hope my friends have a fun, SAFE holiday. I hope they could come back to Shanghai soon. I am telling you guys, I am getting bored without you!