Yun's Little World

A good movie - Flash of Genius

2009-03-08T23:19:00.004+08:00

What kind of movie do you like? I would say I like all kinds of good movies. And what kind of movie you think it's good movie? I would say any movie that makes me think lot more after watching it.

I appreciate the development of the entertainment industry today. Because thought those movies I have learned a lot. They bring me in to the situations, touch my deep feelings and make me understand more things which might not be understood at the present for me.

There was a movie I watched tonight, called Flash of Genius. I consider it as a very good movie. It talks about an engineer Dr. Kearns who invented the intermittent windshield wiper, persistently pursue the justice. He took the giant automobile corporation Ford to the court for stealing his invention. The movie told us how heavy the cost would be for doing the right thing, and how persevering a person should be to resist all those temptation to do the right thing.

Compare to Dr. Kearns, I suppose that myself is a much weaker person. The company had raised the settlement from 250 thousand to 30 million to stop Dr. Kearns, but he didn't. Facing the big amount of money and a family with 6 kids, he still chose the justice. I thought about myself, what would I do if I were him. I probably would take the money at the first place.

I have always considered myself a very dignified person. I care more about the things which have impact on my soul, my believe, and my value, and less materially. But in that case, a life change offer, I am not sure if I would be that steady in that situation. I guess I am just one of the majority, and people call it reasonable.

However, what my point here is, is there only one criterion of right or wrong? I don't know. As I am writing right now, I have changed my standpoint several times. Should a man be responsible for his family and give the best life to them? But how could the man ever teaches his kids to do the right thing, to be good people?

Conclusion is Life is damn hard. The reality is damn cruel. Everything has a cost no matter it's right or wrong. I admire noble people, but remember life is short. What we can do in this world is balancing. Try to be a person who yourself would respect. That's it, and that's all.

OMG, heart melting words~~~

2009-02-09T20:34:00.004+08:00

Haha, it's so funny what I am going to tell about. Today I started a four-days training course which about Consultative Selling Skill and Key Account Management. It is conducted by a world-class consultant associate. The facilitator is from Australia. He is a very experienced marketing and sales person. He shared many valuable view with us.

Even I am not doing sales job, but I really appreciate that my boss invited to the course. There are so many principles and theories can perfectly apply in personal life. Even though I had many many sales training before, but the trend is always changing. There is always new concepts, and you can always learn something from different facilitator.

In today's agenda, we talked about the importance of Listening of handling objections. The guy gave us an example of how important for a guy to listen to the girl when there was a objection in relationship. He said the girl probably wanted the guy to give some reaction or sympathy when the girl's talking. Then the words were spoken out smoothly "Oh honey, it must feel awful!"

Haha, I was a bit in the day dream. I was shocked by those words came back to the classroom from the dreamland straight away. IT FEELS SO FREAKING AWESOME. hehehe.... soft voice... considerate and sympathetic.... OMG, haven't heard of these kinda words for a long time. Pathetic! I laughed at myself afterward, but it was really sweet, heart melting sweet!

OH my dear God, are you going to send me a sweet guy soon?!

The cruel real world

2009-02-08T02:22:00.008+08:00

Crazy week and crazy weekend. I focus my mind on work, try my best to see the direction in a kinda sensitive environment. Many friends envy me that I have found a good job which not involves quotas or ROI (return of investment). My job is supposed to be scientific, promoting the latest world-class techniques and skills of surgical procedures in order to elevating the healthcare quality to a higher level in Asia countries. I believe what I am doing is a right thing, and it inspires me everyday.

But there are too many grey zone in healthcare industry, we have to do the business under a professional and legal practice. That's why we try to avoid relating our sales numbers to the clinical education programs. It's like walking at the place full of landmines. The stressing points are first, it's hard to find the balance of educations and markets, and the second is detecting those landmines. I need more information and records to free me to do the right decision.

Almost 10 hours working everyday, it easily worn me out in the weekend. I couldn't enjoy anything after a long company dinner on friday. Yeah, welcome to the real world! My time is fully arranged with different appointments, meetings and dates. I am surrounded by my colleagues, my friends, and strangers. But I still feel there is something missing. I have been looking for it since a long time to complete me, to make everything meaningful.

I guess I went to a wrong place, saw the wrong person and had the false feeling. Is that true people nowadays are too tired to have space for complications, a simple cuddling or tickling suits us just fine? Is that too much I expect the person wanted to know me from inside, understood me and shared his world with me? (It sounded quite a lot though). It's sad, because it seems I am the only one who want more, no matter how I tired to deny it.

I don't have any fixed standard to say this is good or that is bad. I do things which make me happy and comfortable. But sometime I am fooled by myself or by the illusions. I took the risk of hurting myself. I thought I have been over it. I thought I could be free from what myself would really think. Every time I walked out of that door, I never felt better but even lonelier and more confused...

Australia (2008)

2009-02-05T21:59:00.010+08:00

Few days before I went to cinema with a friend to see the movie Australia. First we saw, damn, it was 2 hours and 45 mins. We were a bit frightened. Almost 3 hours sitting at that small seat doesn't sound so comfortable. But for the sake of all those Oscar nominations, we still went for it. And it didn't disappointed us at all. We didn't feel sleepy for a single minute. I was totally immersed in the movie. I could even feel what the characters felt, that's why I cried like a silly girl. After the movie, my friend made fun of my red eyes. That was embarrassing.

It was a great movie got lots of different kinds of sensitivities in it, such as the love between lovers, between a mother and a child, between different races, the spirit of the nature and human, the frightfulness of war, the ugliness of the invaders...For the detailed plot please ask Mr. Google. The movie enlarged every melting moment to the level of extreme. I was touched by the strong woman Lady Ashely and her lover Drover. Not because they are such beautiful looking people, but for their courage of being who they really are and doing the things only which they believe in.

On the way back home, I was really tired from the whole day work. I was thinking, nowadays there must be lots of people just too tired to feel anything happens around/to them. Everyday wake up and go to work, eat then sleep... day by day the same (or there must be people just ignore everything, and focus on wasters which they believe it's a freaking big joke life should have been like. That's the different case, I am not going to talk about it here). I think work is certainly important, but it's not the most important in my life. Same thing as money.

I believe there must be things more important than how big the house I live or how fast the car I drive. There must be other things that make me have no regrets left when the moment I am dying. I don't know if I am able to jump out of the Cliche of the society, just like I am not sure whether I am able to hike alone into the wild. Even if I really want to but it would be life risking though. I want to feel more in my life, everything, every sensation, good or bad, happy or sad, love or jealousy... However, I found I am actually one of those numb people unfortunately. It was the first time I have shed tears for more than one year. Ah, and I cried for a damn movie.

So you could probably guess how good the movie was, hehe... It's a must-watch in 2009 (for China is 2009, but other region should be counted in 2008). The best quotes from the moive are:

Without love, you have nothing.
It is like this, but doesn't mean it should be like this.

Those two are so far I have the most memory of. Please add those what you have felt about in the comment. Thanks for sharing. Sharing makes the true happiness. Cheers!

What the hell is CNY

2009-01-28T11:02:00.010+08:00

Chinese New Year is boring as hell. People shoot off the fire crackers insanely. In the new year eve I couldn't even hear my own TV. The tradition of setting off fire crackers for scare away the HOLY beast which called Nian. Nian comes to the town once a year, just like Santa. But he is not coming to give the gifts, he takes lives, put the village on fire, eat children...all kinds of terrible things. Don't know where the smart chinese people found something make terrific sound to scare him away, that holy thing so called firecrakers, so the village can avoid the tragety once a year. That's why in Chinese called Spring Festival (Chinese New Year) also Gou Nian, means Nian passed.

Although the story is nice, and the firecrackers are really bring some holiday mood, but I never understood what's so fun of firecrackers. For 10-30 mins is ok, but not all night long... so fed up with all those. Every year, people lose their hands, arms, or eyes or whatever blowout, houses got on fire... many accidents just bcz of firecrackers! Why people still do this dangerous shit non-stop-ly! HOLY!

Nowadays, CNY really has become kinda meaningless, especially for the small family like mine. The New Year holiday just like any other holidays. We have the same activities like usual, having dinner (ok, there would be way too many dishes than uaual, but nothing fancy like stew peacock or something like that), watching TV (besides you could never hear what they talking about on tv bcz of the freaking firecrackers)... for me, nothing special for the eve. Eat-->go back to my room-->sit in front of my table. Ha, the special thing for this year was, instead pc in front of me, there is an awesome Macbook! That's the first goal I scored in 2009, having a Mac. A good kickoff! Keep it on.

I hope my friends have a fun, SAFE holiday. I hope they could come back to Shanghai soon. I am telling you guys, I am getting bored without you!

Show me the meaning of being lonely

2009-01-27T02:36:00.004+08:00

Damn, from the last one I am loving it to this one show me the meaning of being lonely, I must look like a freaking moody silly girl. Well, as I always said, sometime people<--me just get emotional.

I think I don't deserve too many holidays. I should keep working working and working to fill up my mind, to keep me busy from doing stupid meaningless things. I tried so hard to make my life colorful. I tried to deny that I have the moment that I feel lonely. Oh, I do feel lonely sometime like everybody else does. The loneliness pushed me going to the wrong way. I knew all those are wrong. I thought those could be private and only keep it to yourself, and you do whatever you feel like doing. It is wrong. It sucks you up into a dark whole. Once you are in, everything changes from the inside. Your pride, you attitude, your respect...everything... is gonna be fucked up. The worse part is, the same kind get together. So you are gonna stick with the people who is as fucked up as you are...forever, unless you change yourself.

I read the book Blink. It simply points out that actually people do have the ability to know every single truth with our subconscious. Then why do we make wrong choices, do stupid things? Because, we don't believe it. It's hard to believe things from no reason. But it's the way it is. I can say I knew what I am getting into, and I knew what it's gonna be in the end. But I am still doing it.

Why? Maybe because I take the chances. And again, I know that the chances are very slight. Damn, how stupid I am! I am ruining my own life. What the hell I am doing? Just because I couldn't stand the loneliness? I am a good girl, a good person. I deserve lot more than that.

Ask myself again, what the fuck do I really want? Think carefully, and the thing I want the most is relationship. It sounds so lame though. But I do want to be in someone's mind, and have someone in my mind, exclusively. I d0 want someone care about who I am, what I do and how I feel. It should not be downgraded to the casual thing since it's not so easy to get, and I should not deny it because I am so afraid it might take a long time to get it.

I have indulged myself for a while. It's the time to say bye bye to these should never be around. I am the only one to end it up. I did things which make me feel good. But now, I don't. My mum was right, I am gonna hurt myself. I knew these are not for me, I knew there is one day I would go back to what I would always do, to be who I really am.

I am Loving it

2009-01-22T09:36:00.003+08:00

These days I kinda start figuring out that nobody should not be upset if anyone told you are not good enough for them. It really doesn't matter. I take it as who I am isn't the person you are looking for. There is nothing to do with I am good or not good.

For example, let's say a super great guy is looking for someone who's willing to take whatever the bullshit he tells, to follow him up wherever he goes or do whatever he asks...then I think I would never be good enough for him. But, am I good or not? It's totally irrelevant. And for this case, no matter how great that guy could possibly be, I am still more than happy for who I really are.

So why should any doubt about themself when they didn't meet the right ones? Of couse, it's sorta disappointing that the one you like doesn't match with you, but still you should be proud and happy of being yourself, and living your own life. You are always good enough for yourself when you love yourself. The others you passed by just the passagers, stations or some beautiful scene in your life. The Core is yourself.

I love my life. Everyday start from the moment I open my eyes, the moment I walk in my office till the time I ready to go to bed, I feel I am so inspired. I am satisfied with the things I am having now. The most important is I know what I am doing. When you know the focus, everything turns easier for you.

I would like to thank you all my friends, lovers, and my steamy hot boss. You, make my life so colorful and joyful. I love you all.

Belly Button Piercing

2009-01-20T09:54:00.005+08:00

I don't know where I got the courage to get my belly button pireced yesterday. Maybe because of another boring day? I found I always do dumb or strange things or whatever you call to myself. Lip piercing, tattoos... my mum said I am still a brat.

However, I do think I am getting more and more mature. I might be still figuring out what I really really want for life, but I do know what I don't want at the moment. And I am trying my best to avoid to get involved with it. Of coz, sometime I would still get confused. But deep inside I believe I know what it is.

Well, I guess I am still a little bit indulging myself lately. I did things just because I felt like doing, and never overlooked the consequences. These consequences had been evaluated actually, but the result was they are insignificant for the moment.

For the moment, what count are my work and enjoying my life. I don't have time for complications and bullshit. But I would never be against having a relationship, once a simple sweet relationship comes, I would never say no. But still, freedom is the goal of my life. Come and accept the truely ME.

What is the purpose of writing blogs

2009-01-18T02:25:00.000+08:00

Since I got my “Secret Notebook”, I had stopped writing blogs for a while. It is the notebook I carry everyday to record every feeling I have at the moment. It’s not like any diary or article. It’s just combining lines of words.

Few things happened these days, but I was not sure if i would like to share it here on the internet. Human always have the problem that think themselves are more important than what they are actually.

Probably nobody cares what I am doing or what I am thinking, I just put those stories for nothing. For venting my emotions? The small notebook is doing just fine… I think I am going to stop doing the blog thing till I find a good topic to share with everyone.

Maybe I should start recording the Animal Lab Diary. It’s interesting for most of the people I guess. At least to me it’s interesting. Is there anyone want to know more about these kind of stuff? With vivid pictures? Nice?

Confusing

2009-01-06T14:56:00.002+08:00

I think i am not talented to express what is in my head. I am amazed by the movie makers or book writers who can picture their thoughts with a story or thousands of words and make people understand what they are believing. First of all they should know what they are thinking, not like me, get confused again. I guess I get confused quite often, because I have too much time to do nothing. It leads me to be paranoid.

Human are so complicated. I guess not so many people know what they want and what they really want. For somebody it could take life time to find the answer. I thought I wanted to work before, but recently as the on-board date coming closer, the more I feel I am quite happy that staying at home and do whatever I want to do. I finally would start working soon, and now these my last-freedom days seem to be so precious. Life would have another big change. People are all afraid of changes, more or less. Maybe that’s why I have been nervous lately.

My friends say it’s normal to feel this way after two back-to-school years. I just don’t want to change too much of the way I am living right now. I love it. The job that UK company offered me was home-based. It could be awesome. But it pissed my parents off. They didn’t understand what kind of company would not even give you an office… anyway, that case has closed already. I hope after few regular working days everything would be ok…

I will start on 12th Jan officially. So there is still about one week to enjoy my jobless free life! Party from Wednesday to Saturday for the last damn time!

New Year in Beijing

2009-01-04T14:07:00.017+08:00

We were saying that we are two crazy girls party from Shanghai to Beijing on the way from Beijing airport to the city. I had been to Beijing several times 2 or 3 years ago, but those were all for work. I've been told that the night life in Beijing could be better than Shanghai. Well, not better but very different and very fun. We were very excited to experience that. We didn’t actually have any friend there but some freaking "time wasters". Even though we didn’t book the hotel. We planned to party all night and look for the place to stay in the next morning. Yeah, that was a big night, hehe... We finally end up at V's friend's place, not too bad though. I was way too tired to be picky. And the rest of few days were the same, except we moved to a nice cozy hotel, but basically we kept the schedule which was sleeping in the day and going out at night.

Sometime when I saw my friends party picture I would kinda feel jealous . I would feel that my life was not that colorful like theirs or I had been left out of those parties and so on. I don't usually take lots of pictures when I go out. I even hate the flash lights in the clubs or bars. But I know my life is great. I enjoy it so much. I am a lucky girl you know. This trip to Beijing almost get fucked up at the first night right after when we get there... long story though. It had the history behind it. But somehow everything sorted out and even turned to great.

I found it's good for me to go out of Shanghai sometime. Traveling has the meaning of it I guess. Going to somewhere you are not familiar with, somewhere nobody knows you, somewhere you know whatever you did would leave where it is... it feels free and ....free. I never thought about this point before. I thought traveling is all about going to a new place, visiting some wired things, talking to some different people, having some local cuisine. Now I realized, nah nah, that's not all it about.

However, we were as excited as when we went to Beijing when we were on the plane to come back to Shanghai. Hehe... human are complicated. Here is the video clip of the new year eve party in Beijing. Music was great. We danced like we never danced before. If it was not our shoes killing us, we must be the last ones to leave that freaking place . BTW, don't try to find me in the video, we were at very back.

Motivation

2008-12-29T01:44:00.016+08:00

Everything is possible in this world nowadays. What makes the difference is the motivation. For someone who knows the reason why he is doing this or someone who doesn't know, the results would be totally different.

I am not kinda people who want to be the top in the company. I would never have financial problem. I kinda have everything I would probably need. I thought work was just an activity to spend sometime and get social contacts. Maybe sometime you get some satisfaction from a challenge, it would make you feel good. That was all work about to me before. So I stayed a place I felt comfortable, avoid to make mistake. That's it.

Even for now, I still don't think I would give more of my own time to work to get to the top or whatever. It wouldn't never be my priority. Then, what is the motivation for me to work hard? My parents are afraid that I would still not be committed enough to the job. I also thought about this question. As I promised the boss, YES, I am gonna do my best, boss!, did I really mean it?

After few days thinking, it seems I got a breakthrough. My ultimate life objective is To Be Free. It means I would always have choices, free to choose the things I am willing to do, choose the way of life I believe.

To achieve that, the very first step is to be independent. Job can help me with that. I get my own salary and my own saving, I would have the right to spend it on whatever I want. I wouldn't need to convince my parents the money would spend on good use any more, and I wouldn't need to bear the kinda crap such as oh, you should be careful with money, we have to save some to change your car, for your wedding, for your kids, blah blah. I think my parents would be happy to see that I can make my own life.

I don't understand how come those girls think to hook up with some rich men would bring them happiness. Well, I am not judging anyone here or demonstrate myself. There is nothing wrong having a hope of a nice easy life. If your boyfriend happened to be rich AND NICE, then you are a lucky girl. If the guy was your boyfriend because he was rich....hum...that's really bad.

Anyway, thinking about others money is bad. First, money can't buy happiness. After you had everything, then your needs would upgrade as well, and money would get nothing to do with that. Second, for example, if you want to go to UK <---that's me, I mean I want to go to UK :-) , and he wanted to go to Thailand...then how? If I were that guy, I would probably not to say but think, WTF, I am the one pay for everything why I couldn't even go to the place I want to go? If the guy finally went to UK with that girl, he sucks, haha. If they went to Thailand, the girl sucks! Anyhow, it sucks! Look, independence is very important. Maybe now some girls haven't reach that point to understand, because Thailand and UK make not difference for them. hehe...sorry, I have been mean.

Ok, let's go back to 'working is for my ultimate freedom'. One of my friends argued, if you work, then you are not able to be totally free. Sometime you have to do something you don't want to do. You have to listen the same bullshit you don't want to listen. True, we never live in a black-and-white world. Somehow you have to make the compromise somewhere. But it still not against the theory of work-for-freedom. I work hard, learn from it, improve myself. Till the time if everything piss me off, till I couldn't take it anymore, I could say f*ck off and quit. I don't need to suffer because I don't have any other choices. So, I shouldn't worry about how committed I would be this time. I know how to make it work.

I can feel 2009 is a very good year for me. I am so excited about the new year to arrive. I don't know where the spirit come from, but I feel it! God Bless me! and all of us!

List of 2009

2008-12-25T02:21:00.024+08:00

2009 is only 6 days away from now. In the new year, I promise I will do my very best to be good. To be a good daughter to my parents, to be a good friend to my friends, to be a good employee to the company, to be a good person to the society. I will take the best care of myself. I will work hard and also PLAY HARD, live hard. I will try to enjoy every single minute, cherish everything I have had.

I am getting so excited about this new year. Get graduated of my MBA is a big achievement in 2008, then start in January, new job, new life and new goals!I have whole a lot of plans in 2009. Quite exciting, isn’t it?

List of 2009

A new Macbook. It’s way too sweet!

A set of hiking equipment & go hiking to a place has no one but me. I am not sure whether I could be able to do and not to cry of the loneliness. Still, I want to feel that at least once of my life. But have to pick a right place, and do lots of “homework” before it. Would be nice to go with a dog!

Visiting London. Tonight I just turned down a UK company who seriously want me to join them, offered me the trip to London for meeting and stuff. Hehe… So, Chris ßthe Boss, you should really treat me well for the sake of I give up so much for Tyco! I don’t know why London, maybe because of the British men? Yeah, their bloody British accent. Besides those, it should be a very beautiful city with long histories. The Buckingham Palace, the horse guards parade, and the foot guard marching… Museums, the Art galleries, the Tower of London and London Eye… and the red photo booth, the double-decker bus! Now I feel I was stupid to turned the company down so early!

A BOYFRIEND! That’s the most important, isn’t it? I wish he would like to be the biggest part of my life. He has a warm and kind heart. He would never leave me without a trace. He could touch my soul and understand me. He knows what he wants and decisive. he deserves my trust and is able to lead me out of confusions. He is not afraid to admit his mistake. He is honest and always tells me the reason why if I ask. He likes to go out and get crazy sometimes and sometime we can be really lazy just lay on the couch reading books or watch movies or just cuddling all day... Where the Hell are you hiding now? Ok, you still have few days to pop!

Fingers crossed...AGAIN? This time gotta be something better, alright?

Joyeux Noël !

2008-12-24T13:25:00.015+08:00

Time flies. It's Christmas again. Everything of last Christmas is still so clear in my mind. It surprised me how I miss the place I lived, the people who cared about me, and the time of my life there. Somehow, so many regrets left over... It doesn't matter that the memory was good or bad, happy or sad, I appreciate it. It is and it will always be a part of my life.

Christmas recalls my memories. Furthermore, it is the time to wish the best to my cared ones and myself. I have made a list of 2009 for myself. It contains all my wishes of 2009, the things I want to do and the goal I want to acheive, and the things I want to get in the new year. To all my dear friends, I wish you a Merry Christmas and all the happiness and prosperity in the year ahead! And, I wish all of our dreams come true in this new year.

PEACE!

Tough Choices

2008-12-23T17:53:00.023+08:00

The first time I was about to make the choices which I considered tough was in France. I felt so helpless. That was the first time I felt I was on my own. My family and friends were not only far away from me but also not capable to help. What I wanted was only their suggestions or ideas. They didn't even know what's going on out there on the other side of the world, how could they possibly figure out what I was supposed to do. That was the most complicated time I experienced in my life till now. Then I realized how lucky I was when I was in China with my family and friends...

However, different problems would appear right at our face as long as we go on living. Now I am at my home in Shanghai, I got to choose where I am gonna work between two companies, US vs. UK, big vs. small, settled vs. adventurous, specialized vs. broader responsibility... This time I feel again I am standing at the crossing road, puzzling of which way would lead me to the finest end. But I do know, no matter how, I am the one and would be the only one who should take the damn responsibility choose and deal with it.

Dilemma one: I wonder if I would ever know which one is the best. Probably not... So why should I be anxious? Go with the heart say.

Dilemma two: I might not know what would be the best in the end, but would I regret when things didn't go well as what it was supposed to be? Of coz! Then how? I would probably never know which one would the worst either.

I understand one thing at least. I would never be frustrated making tough choices but grateful. Thank God, I still have the choices! The ultimate freedom, yes? It's tough making choices, yet, isn't it the beauty of life? All the unknown, the aspiration of learning... The core of man's spirit comes from new experiences. <---Best quote ever!

I am convinced it's the meaning of life. Just free your mind, figure out what you really want to do and go for it. Why suffer yourself? I'd rather die if I simply sit here every single day wondering what if I did wrong or what would be right. Well, sometime I do make terrible decisions, such as going to France. But it didn't kill me because you never know when the experiences would do you good. I wouldn't be afraid of experiencing more... everything possible. But I guess lots of people around us are holding off and finally would lose the chance of having the desirable dream life ahead.

It's tough to make a choice. But you gotta move! Move forward! Chop-chop! Believe that whatever you decided to do, there is always 50% chance to be right!

WHY

2008-12-23T02:07:00.017+08:00

Big question mark. Why? Does anything have an answer? No matter there is an answer or not, people like asking why for sure. It's porbably the propulsion of the evolution of human civiliation.

Some people asked me Why do you write these things and share it with all those strangers? I suppose that happiness only real when shared. Sadness, jealousy, rage and all kinds of strong emotions are likewise. But is there really a WHY behide all these? I don't even know.

Into the Wild

2008-12-21T22:01:00.011+08:00

Into the Wild is a very inspiring movie. There are so many classic lines are totally blown minds. I couldn’t stop thinking that, are we the natural spirits which have been trapped in the civilizations, society, certain human relations or any other kind of rules of life? What’s the purpose of life? I wonder how many people actually thought about this question, and how many wild dreams and soul have been covered under the day-to-day routine.

I couldn’t agree more that the core of man’s spirit comes from new experiences. People lock themselves in an empty place with money and work their ass off to get the so called “success”. Do they really have time to face themselves or to figure out what is the meaning of all this? If that’s all what you want, fine! Good job! But if it’s not, why should you go on this path only because it’s the normal way of life? Is there a normal way of life indeed? I want to see more of the world. Different people, different places… live in different kind of life with my partner, to share all the touching moments, beautiful scenes of nature and many of others which we might not able to imagine right now. That sounds like a rich life to me. As long as you have a brave heart, no matter how much money you have, you will get there.

I appeal the society stop pushing people to only one direction. Wealth is not the only thing in our life. We should care more about the inside, the moral soul, to free ourselves out of the false norm to the higher spiritual level, to find the comfort of your own, to do what your heart feel like doing. I believe there are always choices, the only thing matters is what you want. All kinds of possibilities are out there. If you want something in life, reach out the grab it.

Let’s go to somewhere left no one else but ourselves, to facing our true self, to feel strong, to clear our minds. Let’s jump out of the concrete and go into the wild.

The Bottle of Life

2008-10-26T21:18:00.008+08:00

One day, a time management expert made a demonstration to a group of business students. It's so impressive that those student probably wouldn't forget of their life time.

In front of those talented young people, he said "let's do a test", then he put one wide mouthed bottle on the table. After, he took out a pile of fist-size rocks and put them one by one into the bottle carefully till the rock over the top. He asked: "Is the bottle full?" All the students answered:"Yes, it is." The expert asked again: "Really?" He took out a bucket of gravel under the table. He poured it into the bottle while patting the bottle wall. These gravel filled up the space between the rocks. "Is the bottle full now?" He asked again.

But this time some students started to understand, "Probably not," one student answered. "Very well!" the expert said. He took out a bucket of sand under the table and poured it into the bottle slowly. The sand filled up all the small gap between rocks and gravels. He asked the students again: "Is the bottle full now?" "No, it's not." the students answered loudly. Again, he said:"good!" Then he fetched a jug pouring the water into the bottle till the water even the top.

He headed up and asked: "What does this example mean?" One student spoke: "It tells us, no matter how tight your time table is, as long as you put effort, you can always do more things!" "No," the expert said, "That's not the its real meaning. This demo told us, if you don't put the big rocks first, then you could never put it into the bottle again. So, what are the rocks in your life? The time you spend with your lover, your religion, your education, dream, or same as mine--guiding others? You must deal those 'big rocks' first, otherwise, you could never do that for your whole life."

I couldn't stop thinking after I read this story. I try to ask myself this question: What are the 'big rocks' of my life? Am I focusing on the right things now or I've given too much weight to the gravels or sand or even water?

Have you asked yourself?

Missing You

2008-10-26T17:31:00.010+08:00

There is something which is all the most beautiful memories installed in you mind. It is a kind of feeling, a sense of belonging makes you feel safe and warm. It is the only reason encourages you going forward. It is the craziness wakes up some part of you. It is so wonderful that nobody would say he could ever live without it.

I heard somebody call it LOVE.

Lost in Shanghai

2008-10-23T15:46:00.020+08:00

I am wondering how many people actually know what they really want. In this world, people make crazy decisions because they are lost. My friends asked me what I want, I...hum...I want... I don't really know. So, I became one of those, or maybe I am always one of the lost ones.

Keep yourself focus on your final goal. Sure, I am so familiar with the lecture. Of coz I know what my ultimate goal is. It's a sweet end, a family, a family I build with my beloved. I am just confused about the path how I am gonna get there. The thing which is the most important to me, what I expect the most, I couldn't help to work on it alone.

Eliminate what you don't want. I always told my friends I might still don't know what I want, but at least i know what I don't want. Recently I asked myself, what you really don't want? I don't want confusions, I don't want complications. I don't want to be tripped by something or someone, I don't want negative influences. I don't want to be the one-side lover, I don't want to waste my time and youth. Does is help figuring out what I want? I found these two perspectives are quite irrelevant. What you want might not be at the direct opposite side of what you don't want.

And Shanghai, the fast changing city. Different people come and go passing by here, passing by you. The relations are complicated between people and people. It easily get you confused and lost. One of my friends said Shanghai eats lost souls. I don't know what exactly what it means, but kinda feel right. Too many things are going on here. You get curious, you want to know more, you have been sucked into that black whole. Oh, there is no damn easy way to get out. The more you straggle to get yourself out, the more you sink into it. Make you even more confused...

It might be the price for growing up, you need to forgo many things, temptations. Sometime it's painful. And you never know if it's the best you can possibly do or not. And there is no way back. I miss the time you can just go with the flow, enjoy everything you are doing right now and don't give a fucking damn. Maybe I gave myself too much pressure. I think too much about the things which out of my control.

So, head up and keep the faith. Enjoy the moment. Live like everyday is the end of world.